And yes, I do not want to complicate this post with legal and medical terminologies. Besides, I am neither a medical-allied course nor a legalese. So please, do not ask too much of what I know in these two fields. Right now, I just want to write whatever-ideas.
Free flowing ideas.
It was not so long ago when someone asked me why I am here. What am I doing in this vast clumped rock floating in this boundless, three-dimensional universe? And so I answered. I told him humbly that I wanted to raise a child. But so much for that. I do not want to complicate this post by what I meant of raising a child.
What is the meaning of Life? What is my purpose? What is the sole pursuit of humanity? As what someone kept asking me one time.. Why?
Why are we here?
What are we here for?
The existence of organisms does not have real meaning. Because, in reality, their existence occurred out of a random chance in nature, and anything that exists by chance has no intended purpose. They are just accidentally created by a chemically-active, terrestrial planet so-called Earth. Nature gave them life and after some time, they die. Simple as that. Am I trying to associate a meaning or purpose so that I can justify my existence?
There is no point in life, and that is exactly what makes it so special. Just like free will.
If there is a reason, it’s lost on me.
What is it that lies ahead for mankind if they knew the secret of this world? Their purpose. The answer to the meaning of life is too profound, too vague to be known and understood. One will just waste his precious time looking and searching for that one thing. That one thing in exchange of one’s total lifespan. Finding that thing would mean never living at all. That is the irony of human existence.
The meaning of life is to forget about the search for the meaning of life. Live life. Love something bigger, greater, and beyond ourselves, something we did not create or have the power to create, something intangible and made holy by our very belief in it. Accept and forgive human flaws. Live it as it is. Enjoy every second of it.
Because that kilo of meat on your head is not enough to contain the wisdom of the universe.
The pursuit of life’s wisdom is probably my reason to search why I am created. I believe this is an adventure game like how you used to play the Super Mario Brothers or Diablo or a Tale of Two Kingdoms. Searching the meaning of life is like finishing an adventure game. You are given a mission, just like saving the princess in Super Mario Brothers. You must have a drive to wanting to see the ending of the game. Because you wanted to know the whole story.
What am I here for? To live and to die? That is the catch. Sooner or later, I must die. But there is this little dash between two dates that would be engraved in my tombstone. And that little dash is the most essential dash I should pursue. In that span of time, I wanted to know what I am living for.
I believe I have a purpose. I believe I need to finish the game.
Go back to the first sentence of the first paragraph: I do not want to complicate this post.